Rain, Rain, Go Away

It's freezing again outside. C'mon, it's April!! I suppose the April showers bring May flowers. I'm looking forward to that, I think. I hope. Maybe that'll make all these grey days worthwhile.

JR came down from Philly last night, just for a day. That's getting weirder and weirder, yet more comfortable at the same time. It makes no sense to me, but whatever. I'm just going with the flow at this point, taking things as they come. I'm in no position to discuss anything; too apathetic, I suppose. I had many moments of frustation with him and because of many other things, and at various points I wanted to kick everyone out of the house and scream. Somehow I managed to contain myself. When will this end? I'm seemingly so frustrated at everything. I'm ready to turn a 180 and try another direction for awhile.

We went and looked at some condos they're building in my 'hood this afternoon. Man, do I want one. I can taste real estate. I'm so excited at the possibility of becoming a home owner. It's a stretch. A big one. And the building won't even be finished until late 2007. But I'm so tired of paying rent. I love my neighborhood, and it's only gonna get better with all the development that's underway. I just ran some numbers - looks like I've paid almost $60,000 in rent since I've lived here, and some of the summers I got free rent because I worked at Georgetown. That much money, down the drain....wow. And so what if I'd only own 1/5 of something after seven years? It's more equity than I've got now, and prices are only going up. I'm not going anywhere for awhile.

JR kept asking me - what if you get married, what if you get a great job somewhere else, what about grad school, and you only have a tiny condo? All good questions, yes, but why do I have to wait around for those things to decide whether or not to make such an investment? I don't. There are plenty of great jobs here in DC. I'm not in any rush to get to grad school, and there are great schools here, if London or NYC or wherever don't pan out. As for the marriage thing, yeah.... not planning my life around anyone. I don't really see myself ever planning my life around anyone. I think the independent streak is about to be taken to a whole new level.

However I did get a marriage proposal last night though, and AS wants to move to South American this fall.... Hmm....so many options......